Finding Love Part 4

Finding Love Part 4
Things are moving a little faster than I had planned. Sorry for this short chapter.
Thank you for all your comments. I like how you guys responded to my question. As for Brian's age, he is the same age as Angel. I think that is all you need to know. Actually, I haven't really planned on their age. Okay, I know that might sound weird but I am being honest. If you guys really have problem with the age, let me know.

(Angel’s POV)

I thought about it the whole night, and I came to realize that I was depending on Brian too much. I wasn’t just worried about my conversation with mom, but something deep inside my heart was telling me that something was terribly wrong. Don’t ask me how, but I started feeling this emptiness inside. It was worse than before. I am not one of those people who can move on with life that easily. I loved Tanner with all that I had, but things still went wrong. Was I expecting too much of my life, or was life expecting too much of me? The answer didn’t really matter; the conclusion was still the same. My life was amiss. Every day I hoped that he would come but it suddenly hit me, as if I could see again; I realized the truth. He had moved on with his life, and I was supposed to do the same. Life doesn’t wait for any one. It just goes on and on. May be I was making a big deal out of things. It’s not like I am the only one who has been betrayed in love. Yes, betrayal was the exact word that suited this situation. It was what happened to me because of him. It was better if I just accept the fact.

I hadn’t checked my email in what seemed like forever. No, it was just few months. I hated checking email, knowing that there was going to be no email from him. I should just forget about him, but things aren’t that easy. It’s all so complicated. I am surviving with out it all, am I not? I checked my phone and surely there were like 4 SMS from Brian. He knew I loved reading his sweet SMS, so he always kept on sending me. I checked the first one and it said, Call me when you can, and rest of them said something similar. I wasn’t so sure what he meant. I mean he could just call me right, than why was he sending me like 4 SMS asking me to call him? Why don’t I just call him and see? But I couldn’t help but wonder if something was up. Something must be up, I decided.
In the first ring, he answered.
"Angle," he whispered.
"It’s me. Is something up? You know, you could have just called me, I would have answered you anytime."
"I know but I just….. Forget it."
"Forget what? Just tell me. You can tell me everything, you know that right?"
"I know, but this is different. I am so desperate to tell you this, but I can’t."
"You can just try. And why can’t you tell me?"
"Things got really weird today. I…. am…. I mean…"
"Listen, you have got to tell me what it is."
"I had a dream today where you were running away from me, as if you were afraid of me. I don’t know what came up, but it was really realistic. I…. I was so af-raid of loosing you."
"Just relax. I am right here, and I am not planning to leave you."
"You don’t understand and I can’t even explain this to you."
"If you can’t, it’s all right. Just take your time. Don’t worry, okay?"
"Kay," he took a slow, deep breath. He seemed nervous and afraid for some reason. I only want him to be happy. I feel so worthless, useless, and helpless. The feelings I have for him are so hard to understand, but one thing is for sure- it breaks my heart to see him sad. I am realizing what he means to me every single day! Oh my…. What is wrong with me? I can’t even figure myself out! This is pathetic.
"I am sorry I am disturbing you. You should be sleeping right now. It’s like 1A.M."
"You are way important than sleep. Don’t worry, I wasn’t sleepy any way."
"Again? What is wrong with you? You should get some more sleep. You need rest and you are-" I was surprised to see the change. Here I thought he was afraid, but now he was forgetting his own problem while trying to solve my own. My best friend was so caring, and I feel really fortunate to have him in my life. That was for sure.
"You love giving me lecture, don’t you?"
"Hum…" He pretended to be thinking. "It depends." I was happy to see him act normal again. Whatever he was going through, he seemed to handle himself again. He never ceases to surprise me and I loved him for that.
"I hate you!"
He chuckled. "You know, in order to hate someone, you must love that person before."
"You wish!"
He chuckled, but then stopped. There was a silence for a while. "I am a little worried about you. You will take care of yourself right?"
I laughed because he sounded so serious. It was hilarious to see him like that. "Whatever. It’s not like you are never going to see me again. We see each other every day!"
"But it’s still not enough," he still sounded serious.
"I agree." I can just imagine him smiling. He always smiled when I agree with something that he feels.
"You would better sleep now. You need to rest more and take more care of yourself. And…." He stopped mid sentence, as if he wasn’t sure if he should say this or not. For some reason, my heart was beating really fast, like I knew what he was going to say even before he said it himself.
"And?" I asked, still afraid and excited for some unknown reason.
"I- I love- I love you," I realized that I was holding my breath before he said that. I was shocked and relieved. The more I thought about it, the more confusing it got. Did I hear him right, or was I just imagining this whole thing. Or maybe he was just saying it as a friend. No, that couldn’t be the reason. I know him, and he is not like that. He has never said that before to me, but why now? For some reason, I was glad he did. It made me feel something…. Deep and lasting, as my mom called it. Who was I kidding? It is impossible!
Before I could say anything, I realized that he just hung up the phone. It made it even more obvious than before that he was serious. I couldn’t stop think if it was just a dream. Suddenly, as if in movies, my flash back of Brian started. He was always so wonderful, amazing, sweet, and cute. He was everything that I have always wanted. I never realize how much I actually care for this guy, and I have never realized how much he meant to me. His smiling face was on my mind. His perfect dimple made him even more charming. I have never looked at him that way. His gray eyes were so beautiful, mysterious, and so filled with warmth and love. Yes, love. Why didn’t I notice it before? I could easily imagine him saying "I love you", with a cute nervous expression in his face. He was so gorgeous. I slowly closed my eyes, and there he was again! He was still saying that he loved me, making me giggle with delight, and I just couldn’t help but smile. I slept with a big, smile on my face. I didn’t care what I was going to say to him, or what I was going to do. Each day had its own problem, and I will leave this problem for tomorrow. I just wanted to stay this way. I even dream of him, and saying that he loved me, even in my dreams! I wasn’t sure how, or why, but for some reason Tanner was the furthest thing from my mind.

By only way

Finding Love

Finding Love
Even when everything seems wrong, there is always a chance of finding love..
Finding Love
Enlarge Image
I have never given much thought to the word love. At least not until I met the one I thought was for me, but it seems like that wasn’t the way it was supposed to be. Things changed with time. Almost everything changes with time but only one thing remains inside our hearts. No matter how hard we try, we can never remove that from our life. It’s a part of our heart, and maybe part of our soul as well. Happiness, sadness, pain, almost everything comes from that one single word. Love

I have always expected a simple life, but look what I got. The one guy whom I thought loved me, and I loved him as well, betrayed me. He is so far away that I can’t even reach him. I have no idea where he is at the moment but one thing is for sure, he took my heart with him and I can never get it back. All the memories that I shared with him remain, even when he is gone. If I will ever meet him again, I will like to ask him a question, what exactly did I do wrong? He meant so much to me, could he not see that? Was there something wrong with my love? Did I not give him all that I have? Everything that I ever have, I gave it to him without expecting anything in return except for his love. I know that he loved me but then why did he leave me without even saying a word. Just the very thought of him makes me smile and cry. Everything was so perfect, why did he have to leave me without telling me why? I have never loved anyone the way I loved him. I was willing to do anything he wanted me to. My family, friends meant nothing compare to him. I see him every single day in my dreams. Each time, I find him going away from me. Don’t you see how much I need you?

It’s impossible to imagine myself without him. I am willing to do anything to have him back in my life. The day we met, when he first kissed me, when he said he loved me- everything is so fresh in my mind like it was just yesterday instead of 6 months. Each day has been painful to live without him by my side. Please come back, my heart screams the word again and again, but he still hasn’t come. I am so crazy about him, how can he do this to me? Does he have any idea how much it hurts to not see his face, and not have him close to me? His face is still on my mind with all the little details. I remember everything about him. He made me fall for him deeply and he even promised to be with me forever. Everything was false, lies. It’s all wrong. What did I ever do to deserve this? My heart is screaming, and crying in pain. Can’t things ever get better? He has to come now; otherwise it will be too late. Everything will be different. No matter how much I want to, I will not be able to stop this. Please come back….. Please come to me….. I can’t take this any longer. How can you leave me? I love you, and I can only love you. Forgive me if I ever did anything wrong to you. I love you, and that’s all I really know. I don’t think my heart can take this any longer. My heart is not strong enough to face all this alone. I need you. I want you. Can’t you see what I have become without you? I hate to be here, I hate every minute of it. You said you loved me, but how can you be gone.

You have to come back….

I really need you…..

With all my heart, I love you….

Take me away from all this…..

I promise to love you forever…..

Please come back…..

<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

May 17

Megan knew her death was coming, and was extremely worried about her daughter. She knew she hadn’t been a good example to her daughter but there was very little she could do. It seemed to be too late to do anything. She was running out of time. She had watched her daughter crying almost every night but she knew it was for the best. Tanner was not the right guy for her daughter. She had hoped that her daughter will get over him, but she never did. It’s like her daughter is trapped, and she is not willing to let anyone help her.

Who can understand love well then Megan did? She had also felled for a wrong man, and she didn’t want the history to repeat itself over again.

Once death is near, everything starts to make sense. Megan knew there was no turning back in life but there was one very important task that needed to be done. She needed to show love to her daughter again. A mother only wants the best for her child even when her child might not see it. When it’s the right time, her daughter will see it. That was for sure.

Ever since Tanner went away, her daughter has changed. Her sweet daughter was becoming bitter. Love was really blind. It made her daughter blind, and did the same to her. But no matter what, she will not let her daughter live a life without love. There was only one way to bring love in Angel’s life again. There was only one man who loved Angel enough to do that for her. He wasn’t just any guy; he was unique and so loveable. Megan couldn’t see how her daughter could still be in love with Tanner after seeing a guy like Brian. Brain was everything a girl could ever wish for; but only her naïve daughter could not see it. And most importantly he was in love with Angel. What can a girl ever wish for? It was so obvious that Brian was in love with Angel, but only Angel could not see it. Somehow Megan had to bring them together, before things change. She will not be able to die peacefully until her most important task was done.

******************************************************************************
"Get ready, we are going out for dinner," Brian said for the fifth time, but Angel still wasn’t willing to listen.

"I really don’t want to go. Please understand," Angel begged.

Her reaction made Brian chuckle. "You are going out with me, and that’s all there is."

Angel knew full well that it wasn’t worth arguing with Brian. Even though he was her best friend, he never stopped annoying her. He loved making her do things she didn’t want to. He was so sweet that it was impossible to say no to him.

"Fine. You won like usual. Now, let me get ready,"

Brian gave her his best smile, making her smile as well. "I will be waiting outside."

She wasn’t outgoing type. Well, at least she became this way ever since Tanner……. She didn’t want to think about it. Brian was always there for her, and she needed to go out and be happy for him. It seemed like all Brain ever wants is to make Angel happy. That’s what true friends are for, Angel thought to herself.

**********
Comments will be much appreciated and if u guys have any idea on how you will like this story to be, I will love to hear it from u. Love You All!!!!!!!!!

By only way

The Secret of Lasting Love? Just Answer 25 Simple Questions

The Secret of Lasting Love? Just Answer 25 Simple Questions
The course of true love never did run smooth and now scientists know why. Love, according to a new theory, is not a matter of lightning bolts or raw sexual desire but of pornography and politics.

Its proponents, who claim to be able to predict marital happiness, say society has the recipe for love all wrong: opposites do not attract. Instead, the only way to a life of happiness together is to share a single opinion, or more specifically, 25 of them.

'Society today goes around the matter of finding love in the completely wrong way,' said Dr Glenn Wilson, a psychologist at the University of London and co-author of The Science of Love .

'We tend to dismiss people who don't fit the blueprint of perfection in our heads but our research proves that true love is doomed unless we have a number of what might appear to be mundane and obscure things in common.

'There is obviously an area of love that involves chemistry and animal attraction,' Wilson said. 'But our research found 24 areas where - unless the couples felt almost identically - their relationship would be in trouble before long.'

Wilson has spent two decades applying the science of psychometric testing to the art of love, and devised the Compatibility Quotient, or CQ, test by studying the most severe causes of marital friction on test couples and whittling down the list to 25 vital areas.

He is so confident of the value of his CQ test that he and Jon Cousins, the former creative director of an advertising company, have founded Cybersuitors.com, an internet dating agency which uses the theory to match clients.

Each applicant is asked their opinion on each one of the 25 areas, and given five different answers to choose from. Each reply is compared with those of every other member on the database, and a list is produced of those with most similarities.

'We have found that the CQ score is a virtual predictor of marital happiness,' said Cousins, who found love himself on the site shortly after it launched six weeks ago.

'Even though I helped devise the test, I would not necessarily have applied such a cut-and-dried approach to my own life until it happened almost by accident.'

After completing his own test, Cousins found he shared a CQ score of 134 with another member, 34 points higher than the 100 indicating average compatibility.

'I could not resist contacting her to see if this magic formula would work for me and, although it is still early days, it is certainly a deeper relationship than any I have been in for a long time,' he said.

Nick Auchincloss and his girlfriend, Vicky, met on the site in mid-April. 'I have usually gone for girls because of an emotional and instant attraction,' he said.

'I was sceptical about this test because it asked things I would never have thought I cared about, either in myself or my partner, but which I have now realised are pretty important to a relationship if you want it to last.'

Auchincloss contacted Vicky after their responses scored 138. 'Our relationship is already stronger than my usual experiences,' he said. 'Knowing we feel the same about these basic issues gives me an objective trust in her individually and in us together,' he said.

Wilson admitted that although it was important for couples to share a range of common interests and values - including views on the type of relationship they wanted, children, sexual fidelity and leisure activities - he was surprised by some of the areas in which concordance was vital for long-term happiness.

'Differing opinions on pornography and politics were most likely to spell disaster in any long-term relationship. Women were eight times more likely to admit their relationship was unhappy if their view on pornography differed from their partner's,' he said.

'The big issue with men was if their woman was more, or less, experienced in bed than they were: that spelt long-term unhappiness for 40 per cent of men.'

Couples who like similar food were three times likelier to stay happy than those whose taste buds clashed, while those agreeing on what to watch on TV were three and a half times more likely to experience marital bliss than those who vie for control of the remote.

Also vital for conjugal harmony was agreement over the value of chivalry - 'that's our way of discovering what they feel about feminism,' said Wilson - and a shared desire for pets.

There is, however, one area where it was better to disagree: alcohol. Cousins said: 'Partnerships where one member drank heavily and the other abstained were deeply content.

'While other differences seemed to lead inevitably to unhappiness in long-term relationships, differences in drinking habits brought couples closer together.'

amelia.hill@observer.co.uk

© Guardian News & Media 2008